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梨山

This place was my father’s last destination. Goh found this song about this place. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3-IWZc6JuQ&feature=PlayList&p=32712CD2FD06116B&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=3

Grief

I witnessed my father’s death first hand. I was the one who discovered, accompanied him in the ambulance to medical center, received the confirmation of his death, accompanied his body for 5 hours from mountain to Taichung, prepared his funeral in a foreign land. In that brief time between his actual death and the arrival … Continue reading

The person who inspired me to blog

As my children grows, I feel that I start to learn things from my sons instead of the reverse. My son, Robin taught me how to create a blog. Thanks Robin! Visit his blog: http://gohrobin.wordpress.com/

Mr Nice Guy we met in Taiwan

Greeting card from Mr Chen Tai An, 25 Dec 09 The second greeting card from Mr Chen Tai An, 25 Dec 09 evening. Besides this, he also bought some gifts for us. Thanks for the gifts, Mr Chen.

My father’s photos

My father’s last journey

When I was in Taiwan, my ‘frequency’ was tuned to Chinese channel so I did not feel so strongly when I write this in English. Every people I talked to, places I went to, things I encountered at Taiwan were Chinese. I was indeed surprised, I never wrote or typed so many Chinese words before, … Continue reading

于是,我可以说再见

悲哀突然降临,我好像跌入深渊爬不出来。从爸爸往生那天起,我处在失落、自责、空洞和麻木状态,失去活力。写完这篇经历后,压抑的悲伤似乎找到出口。 两天前Yvonne说梦到爸爸穿着白袍白色长裤,和一群同样装扮的老伯伯在很亮的花园走来走去。但愿他真的到西方极乐世界去。 今早我又赖床了,像变了另一个人一样,我告诉家人给我一个月的疗伤期,我明白不能永远悲伤自责。 拿起Angela 在台中见面时送给我的一本书“于是,我可以说再见”,作者苏绚慧。 Page32:excerpt from说出悲伤的故事 而我能从中走了出来,走向一个连我都意外的人生方向,是从“我可以真实说出来我的故事”开始的。因为不能说也不知如何说,我的苦痛经验长达十年,而且处于凝结状态,像是冷却掉的麦芽糖膏,难以动弹。。。。 直到我能说出我的故事,写出我的故事,画出我的故事,我一步一步的靠近发生在我身上的真实。我从无法开口,一次一次的尝试后,开始吞吞吐吐的说这我完全不知道该如何讲起的遭遇,再到,可以仔细看待每一个小细节、小部分,然后重新再选择我要如何说我的故事- 什么样的口吻、什么样的语调,什么样的情节开始说我的故事。 。。。也因为说出自己的故事,那些悲伤回忆便获得完整的表达,也有了空间安放它们,不再是无边无际的影响生活,干扰心思意念。 如同Isak Dinesen说:“如果我们可以把悲伤转变成一个个故事,那么所有的悲伤就可以承受了。” 还没看这书前我已用这方式承认发生在自己身上的事,也能面对这遭遇所带来的悲伤、痛苦、愤怒、伤害。 谢谢你们聆听我的故事。更要谢谢Angela买一本好书给我。